Its been said that the women in MY family… are CURSED…
They say our relationships are destined to failure… but Im not settling for that!!!
I think I’ve figured out what they consider a “curse” but I consider more of a frame of mind… a way of thinking, per se’!
We… (the women in my family) are/were all destined for greatness (as Im sure you all feel about YOUR families… I hope) but we have been known to let L O V E get in the way of our destinies… cloud our judgement, I’d say. Its time for all of that to stop… the buck stops HERE!!
When looking for love, we’ve come across THAT man… THE man we used to dream about when we were in highschool. You know… the Doctor… the Lawyer… the “Rapper” etc. (*giggles* everyone had their OWN dreams) but upon meeting THE man of our dreams… he turned out to be ARROGANT… DEMANDING… and CONDESCENDING (to no end… UGH) and not to mention a LIAR, a CHEATER & a SCUM BAG. *eye roll*
So of course being the “strong willed” BITCHES that we are… that.shit.did.not.last!!! (for any of us) S M H… go figure!
but there is this ONE thing!!
NOW… they all seem to think WE’RE too good for them, or THEY are not good enough for US (because, they’re either not established enough financially where they feel like they can take care of us the way we want/need to be taken care of OR they’re afraid they’re DICKS aren’t big enough to satisfy us sexually… *shrugs*)
and in turn they end up smothering us to death and/or treating us like we’re CONSTANTLY looking for someone BETTER!!! S M H…
NO… WE’RE NOT (YET)… WE BEEN THERE… DONE THAT and all that other shit sounds like a PERSONAL PROBLEM to me!!!!
This shit gets SO FUCKING OLD…
Why the fuck is it so hard to find a man with as much confidence as me, who is as SECURE as I am, withOUT them being OVERBEARING… ARROGANT… CONDESCENDING… CONTROLLING… JEALOUS… CONTRADICTORY… HYPOCRITICAL… JUDGEMENTAL… CHILDISH… INCONSIDERATE… J E R K S?!?!?!?
Why is it so hard to find someone WITHOUT these fine qualities?????
They’re either too much of EVERYTHING or not e-fucking-nough of ANYTHING!!!!!!
Ok… upon starting this post, I thought I had a solution for this predicament we keep finding ourselves in… but upon ENDING this post, I’ve realized that I DON’T!!!
Sometimes I just feel like I need guidance… S M H!
I WANT to have love… but I also WANT to have myself… I don’t LIKE losing myself in love… I don’t want to be that girl that’s watching the clock everytime I step out, to make sure I don’t stay out too late, because my man is gonna think Im cheating. I don’t want to be that girl that loses all her friends because “she got a man now”. I don’t LIKE that chick… and that chick AIN’T me!!!!!!
Help. . . 😦